Afraid of Trying?

laptop lifestyle on open grass patch.

Afraid of trying??

We’ve all been there at some point, some of us more, some less…

Or maybe some of us are having this feeling right now.

Why do we feel this way?? What is your reason??

• Fear of failure

• Fear of trying something new

• Fear of what others might say or criticize

• Fear of learning too much, overwhelming

• Fear of not being able to cope

• Fear of not being able to commit

• Fear of……. the reasons and/or excuses can go on and on and on…

Yesterday, I was visiting my sister and she had this quote hung on her wall, and I want to share this with you:-

“Life is too short to wake up with regrets,

So love the people who treat you right, forget those who don’t.

Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get the chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy.

They just promised it would most likely be worth it.”

I have been there many times, finding excuses to not do, being afraid, or just being comfortable, but I realize there’s another reason.

I so believe everything happens for a reason (I have a scripture writing of it tattooed on me) When the time is right, there is no being afraid or throwing out excuses. It will just happen. It’s almost an open acceptance or invitation of yourself, that’s just meant to be at the very moment. There may be a little fear, which I find is a good thing, but I find that I am open and ready for it. And it probably becomes a ‘change my life’ moment.

Two clear experiences I would like to share. Being a dancer since age 7, I grew up performing, dancing & teaching. When yoga was just getting popular, about 15 to 20 years ago, acquaintance, friends, neighbors were suggesting for me to try yoga. I was like ‘nah’ not my thing, without knowing much about it. Then I was attending a dance workshop, and one of the sessions was an Ashtanga Yoga class. I was like, ‘alright, it’s part of the workshop, will give it a go since its included’    

I attended the session. The instructor was very inspiring, and I enjoyed it. But yet, I was like, no music was being played, it’s a bit boring. How can one attend a class with no music. And that was the end of it.

It was around 5 years later, that I felt I needed something else for my body, and yoga came to mind. I decided to give it a go, no one had to sell me the idea or persuade me to try, I was ready. Since then, I’m a regular practitioner, I got my 200hrs yoga teachers training and actively teaching several styles of yoga. This, “a life changing moment” for me, yes indeed. 

Me in in a yoga pose, bounded half moon pose.
Me in a yoga pose, bounded half moon pose.

Just 6 weeks ago, I said to myself, Laura, something got to change. You have a pretty good life, doing what you love (presently, teaching yoga) & you have the time. But all this is in Singapore and my partner, Patrick (we are not married, but very happy for almost 10 years and counting…), mostly in Spain (running a business and a few projects to complete) We have been doing this long distance, back and forth relationship for 5 years. And trust me, as much as the travel may seem ‘wow’ (and to some point it is) it gets tiring.

One major issue is when I am away, which is every 2-3 months, I don’t get paid. The cycle of teaching as much as 80 over classes per month which helps financially for the time I am away, then spending on airfares and not getting paid when I am gone for 4-5 weeks each trip, takes a serious toll. Patrick and I have also realized that we really hate our time apart now and we miss each other so so much. This became more prevalent when in Nov, 2018, his brother, aged 52, passed away from a heart attack. It was so sudden & unexpected. And in your face wakeup call of “LIFE IS SHORT”.

So, going back, there were many times Patrick has suggested for me to do something new, something online which will allow me to work from anywhere. (yes of course I want to move to Spain with him) It frightened me (coz I don’t know much about it, and didn’t bother to find out more either) thus I came up with many excuses, and other times, I just changed the subject, when he mentioned.

Coming back to that one day in November 2019, it just happened, I took the website address that Patrick suggested for me to check it out (ha, that was like 3 months earlier he gave me the info, oh well, better late than never), and BOOM!!! I got into it, I am doing the training. I love it and look forward to the next day to learn and do more. I see this going well for us.

Now, we are in the end of January and with a big smile on my face and my heart, I will be moving to Spain early April 2020, woohooooo, we are so excited.

Patrick and Me on a trek in Lanzarote, Canary Islands
Patrick and me, on a trek, happy together.

In my conclusion, when you are ready and open to welcome something into your life, when the need for that turning point or for a ‘must change’ situation, being afraid or having excuses will just melt away and everything just goes. Then just trust, let it all flow and enjoy the journey.